Nervous, Sore, and Frustrated

Well, I made it to the gym 5 days this week.  I am being extremely good with what I eat and the scale only budged another .2 pounds (yes, less than a quarter of a pound) to 10.8.  I am so sore that it is affecting my sleep.  I have started icing my ankle and I am using the foam roller daily at the gym on my gluts and IT bands. My shoulder hurts as well.   HOW in the world am I going to make it through 7 hours a day if I am having trouble making through ONE!

Thought the scale was broken!

So, I went 6 (yes SIX) days with the scale reading the same 9 pound weight loss. Ok, so I admit that I am one of those people that weigh daily.  I think I would need a time vault to stop.  :)  This morning I finally hit 10.4 pound lost!  Boy that was painful!  I have the hardest time passing up those Costco food demos, bread at restaurants (much less all white carbs), and even bite size desserts, but I did and the scale was not moving. Alas, it finally moved!

Guess what is next for me is to write down what I eat.  I just can't seem to do it.  I have not found a simple enough method that is not too time consuming.  Suggestions? 

My goal for the week is 5 days to the gym.  Two down 3 to go!

Bodyvive

I made it to my first group class today.  I joined the 12 week challenge class at the gym and they have classes just for the challenged, I mean  the challengers.  Since we were mostly newbies in the class I did not feel self conscious that I could not get all the moves.  They have a different class every Saturday.  I think I will try more. 

I am meeting with my trainer two times per week and getting to the gym two other times.  I still do not think I am going to be ready for the "resort."  I am getting nervous since I am only working out 1 hour 4 days per week and I am going to jump to 7 hours per day.  How is my body going to handle that?  I am already really sore some days just after an hour.

As you see,  I posted to pictures to show you some of the high and low points in my life.  This is not all of them by any means.  This was just post digital camera purchase and when I was not taking the pictures.  I will look for more.  I am being brutally honest to serve as a reminder on this journey, but also another effort reach out for help.

Work out progress

So you may wonder why January 2 was my Monday?  For those of you that don't know me, I work in the accounting world and December 31st is my year end.  I am not one of those New Years Resolution people, but I had trouble taking on the challenge of getting to gym when I was working extra hours to close the company books.   I actually have been talking about going to a fitness resort for the past two years, but actually working out the time away from work and my parents to take care of my daughter is another story.

Since January 2nd, I have lost 7.8lbs.  I am past the dreaded week two and am not as hungry so it should get easier.  Only 5 million more pounds to go.  :)  When I get to 10 pounds lost, I am getting myself a treat... a pair of these (Wolford Tights!).  I need incremental goals and rewards :)

Three weeks until FR Malibu

Well, I have never had a blog before but I have been inspired by reading on the FR site. I thought I would start a blog to give myself some accountability and give you some background about me.

I have come to the realization that I would better off if I could just cut food out of life all together.  I have counted at least 6 times in the past 15 years where I have lost 30 to 70 pounds.  I have started diets countless more times than that and not made it past the 10 pound mark. I find it hard to get past the second week plateau.  I have clothes in my closet from a size 6 to size 16 (I donated the 18 and 20 when I lost the 70 lbs).  I am now back at size 16 and am determine not to buy anymore clothes.

I know how to diet, exercise and can lose the weight when I set my mind to it.  I lost 70 pounds in 5 months.  I just can't maintain.  I can restrict in order to lose the weight (cut out all white carbs, no deserts, etc) but I have trouble finding balance once I reach my goal.  To make matters worse, when anything stressful happens in my life, I find comfort in food.  I also find excuses not to make it to the gym.  I don't go and eat a bag of cookies, but I might eat a cup of ice cream per night and have second portions at dinner. 

I have always dieted on my own and I am hoping to look to others this time for support.  I need to figure this out.  I need help.  Something has to give.  I am tired of starting over.  I am hoping to find some answers at FR.

My Monday was January 2.